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Life is bigger than me.
And life doesn’t give a damn if I’m happy. It doesn’t give a damn if I’m sad.
It doesn’t care if there’s riots in the streets of my hometown. It doesn’t care if I’m binging Madmen on Netflix.
Life doesn’t care if I’m a success or a failure.
It doesn’t care if I feel alone.
Life just is. And I don’t think it’s here for any reason except to be here.
There’s going to be earthquakes, and blizzards, and California will probably run out of water. There’s going to be beautiful summer days, and hurricanes, and crisp December nights with the twinkling of Christmas lights. (Do be sure to take those lights down by the end of January. Okay? Thanks!)
There’s going to be FREAKING TRAFFIC!
But there’s also going to be straight, open roads where I feel the freedom to roll down the windows, let the breeze and the sunshine touch me, and completely disregard the speed limit. Yeah!
Loved ones will leave. And babies will be born. And I’ll probably continue to be completely blown away by the fact that my brother is now someone’s dad. I’m positive he’ll be great at it. And I’m sure he’ll really dig it.
And I’ll hold close to my heart the time, so very long ago, when he fell asleep on my floor after an evening of carousing and my iguana slept on his face.
That was funny.
And we all get a chance to be young, but most of us waste it. We get old so quickly. I’m telling you, younglings, we do.
If I’d have known that, really known that, I’d have enjoyed my hair more when it was thick and kick ass. I’d have experimented with different hairstyles.
And dyed it blue.
I’d have dated a certain acquaintance’s ex girlfriend. Because twenty years later, none of that means anything anymore.
Maybe, life is about learning.
So I leave you today, dear readers, with some gems of caffeine-induced wisdom.
1.) Praying or well-wishing is nice, but buying a homeless guy gloves is infinitely more effective in preventing frostbite.
2.) The Buddha said, “Existence is unsatisfactoriness.” But he failed to mention that it’s made better by living with a dog.
3.) We all have our own truths and there’s never any good reason to compromise on them. Any time I have, I’ve suffered.
4.) Right and wrong are mostly subjective. But compassion, that’s a real thing.
Until next time, keep your head in the stars and keep reaching for your feet.
Asking me for relationship advice is like asking me to command a starship.
Actually, I’d be better with the starship.
As far as relationships go, I could parrot stuff wise people have told me, stuff I’ve read in books, or quote romantic lines from movies.
But I’m no expert on love.
I mean, I’m not in a relationship now, and I’ve never been married.
Seems silly to ask me for advice, eh?
I’ve got some skills and tips to help someone make it through an anxiety attack or a total friggin’ meltdown.
I can teach you some stuff about drumming, or martial arts, or meditation.
I’ve even got some badass recipes for easy vegan soups.
But I received an email just the other day from a reader who was asking my advice, or if I’d written any posts that could pertain to his current situation. It seems he’s been in a 15 month relationship with someone he loves, but has found someone new, younger, and sexier.
He mentioned that his current girlfriend is too “tame” in the bedroom and that when he tries to talk to her about it, she gets defensive. He feels really despondent about his needs not being met. His relationship with his girlfriend is otherwise good, but he’s in total lust with the new, much younger woman.
I really wanted to give this guy some mind-blowing advice. I wanted to sit down and create a post about communication, or something about the grass is always greener, or the challenges of dating someone 17 years younger.
Or, I could’ve reminded him that women aren’t mere sexual objects for his gratification.
I could’ve gotten on my soapbox about how he ought to be thankful that someone wants to be in a relationship with him and how everyone’s eyes wander occasionally. That’s part of being human. It’s perfectly natural and okay. But it doesn’t have to be acted on.
And in many, many cases, it shouldn’t be.
But I didn’t write any of those things. Instead, I pulled a Dr Drew and responded to his email suggesting that he talk to a professional therapist or counselor. Maybe together they could work out what he should do. Or, maybe they could look at his thoughts and feelings towards women or relationships in general.
Because that guy was suffering. And Life is full of it. Judging or criticizing each other isn’t helpful, even if they are doing things or living a life that I don’t agree with or understand. And I think one of the worst things we can do, besides judging, is giving unqualified advice.
Now, if I only had a starship.
What the hell is dancing?
Really? What is it?
Now, I’m not talking about ballet or one of the more choreographed styles of dance. I totally get that. As a matter of fact, I’m a kind of a ballerina fanboy.
I know how much training and discipline it takes to reach the level of professional ballerina.
I’m in awe of the power they wield over their environment, and the physical strength and endurance it takes to make it through a performance while executing flawless technique.
I’m talking about what happens at wedding receptions.
That stuff that your date might try to make you do. That stuff that makes me decline the offer of being someone’s date to a wedding. I wouldn’t want to ruin her time by being the guy that won’t dance, or worse, the guy that dances awfully.
And all of her friends would be like, “Who is that derp that Jen brought with her?”
Because most women my age are named “Jen.” I think I know 15 of them. Which is okay, because I’ve always liked that name.
Anyway, I wouldn’t want to put Jen through that. Or myself, for that matter.
If I ever get married, I would take dance lessons with my fiancé. That way, we could look really awesome.
And instead of everyone thinking about how uncomfortable I look, which is exactly what people are thinking at that time in most men’s lives, they could instead think about what a beautiful moment it is. And everyone could really enjoy it.
Because If something scares us or makes us uncomfortable, sometimes learning more about it takes the edge off.
If someone is afraid of snakes, maybe learning more about them could help. Learn which ones are venomous and which ones are not. Learn which ones you’re likely to encounter where you live.
If a person is afraid of public speaking, perhaps taking an acting class at the local college could help one become more comfortable in front of an audience and also give them tools to help them seem more relaxed onstage.
Or maybe someone who is afraid of getting mugged could take a self defense class from a reputable instructor and feel more comfortable going out in the evening to spend time with friends.
There are lots of options and work-arounds.
Think about what you’d like to change and what skills or information you’d need to do it. Then think about who might possess that skill or a similar one and go and get it. It might be a person. It might be a book. Check it out.
As far as me, I’m not engaged so I don’t really have to worry about dancing anytime soon.
Today I woke up with Kenny Rogers’ “The Gambler”stuck in my head. I’m not sure why. Last week I mostly woke up to Whitesnake.
Where the hell did that come from?
Not that there’s anything wrong with Whitesnake, it’s just been ages since I’ve listened to them. I can’t imagine why they’d be stuck in my head.
And for those of you wondering which song, it was “Slide It in”.
I’ll just go ahead and leave that there.
Anyway, back to Kenny Rogers. My mom used to play one of his greatest hits albums every weekend when I was a kid. It was sort of her soundtrack while doing housework.
The nice thing about Kenny is most of his songs tell a story. That’s a good way to engage a kid. And, it would seem, to making dusting shelves less painful.
I decided to give “The Gambler” a listen while eating breakfast. And you know what? I think it’s a great song that stands the test of time. It also occurred to me that Kenny Rogers could be considered one of my first spiritual teachers.
Just think about it. The first four lines of the chorus pretty much give a workable formula for living.
“You’ve got to know when to hold ‘em.
Know when to fold ‘em.
Know when to walk away.
And know when to run.”
And with a new year fast approaching, I’m taking an inventory of my life to see what’s working and what’s not.
When should I hold’ em and when should I fold’ em?
Is it time to walk away from some things in order to make room for new opportunities?
Are there people I need to run the hell away from?
What about you?
No one gets out of life alive.
What are you going to do with the time you have left?
I’ll be pondering that question too.
Like Kenny said:
“Every hand’s a winner and every hand’s a loser.
And the best that you can hope for is to die in your sleep.”
That might be the most important thing to remember, ever.
Being compassionate is better than being a jerk face.
And I know it can be challenging. It is for me.
Being compassionate is especially tough when it’s just so easy for me to think that everything is against me or the whole universe is out to make my life more difficult, that everyone’s an idiot, or everyone is mean.
The truth, though it’s easy to forget, is that everyone is dealing with their own challenges, and is doing the absolute best they can to manage their suffering.
Like Henry the rescue dog.
Henry, like many humans, has issues. He was abused and kicked around and suffered things that I don’t even know about. The most dangerous thing he does is growl, bark, and try to bite if I touch him while he’s sleeping.
In any case, instead of being mad at him, or punishing him in some way, I feel like the best thing I can do is just call his name to make sure he’s awake before I start interacting with him.
So, that’s what I’m doing. I’m being compassionate and aware of his challenges, mindful of his space, and creating an environment where we can live peacefully so he doesn’t have to go to a shelter.
That’s a nice lesson.
And that lesson makes it easier to be compassionate when the person I’m on a date with can’t put her Smartphone down and give me her full attention. She just can’t.
Getting frustrated with her isn’t going to fix things or make her into the person I want her to be. It’s not going to get me the sort of attention or connection that I’m looking for.
Feeling inadequate or feeling less interesting than her phone isn’t helpful to either of us.
What is helpful is to realize that we’re all suffering, and that suffering manifests itself in different ways. Perhaps her compulsive use of her phone is a way of managing hers.
It’s too late now. Though I liked her, we’ve drifted apart after not really hitting it off so I’ll never know.
What I do know is that I can’t change other people and I’m not in control of their stuff.
The dog can stay or not. Training may help, but it can’t change who he is.
I can date a Smartphone Girl or not. But I can’t change who she is or her relationship with electronic devices. But I guess I could decide to only meet her where phones don’t work.
Like the apocalypse.
A time when everything shuts down and our only choices are to pay attention to each other, work together, and be more compassionate.
So yeah, my life is a bit dull right now.
I don’t even have anything to complain about.
This may explain why I’m writing a second grocery store piece in less than a year.
Do you ever wonder if the cashier judges you by what you have in your cart?
For instance, there was the time I took my iguana to the veterinarian because she had a weird bump on her face. The vet informed me that it was an abscess and I should just put some hemorrhoid cream on it.
So, off I went to the grocery store to make the purchase. Everything was going well until I get up to the checkout counter and the Preparation H didn’t have a price on it.
Bear with me here. It was 1995, before computers took over everything and automatically knew all of the prices.
In any case, the really cute college girl behind the register picked up my hemorrhoid cream and tried to scan it but it wouldn’t scan. She grabbed that microphone, the one that registers used to have, to ask for a price check.
Cute Cashier over the microphone: I need a price check on the Preparation H.
Me: It’s for my lizard.
A voice yelling from somewhere in the store: What kind?
Cashier over the microphone: Maximum Strength.
Me: There’s a sore on it.
They did get eventually get the price figured out. I paid for the cream and left.
As I walked out to my truck, I felt sort of embarrassed that the the cashier probably thought I had hemorrhoids.
Not that there’s anything shameful about having them. It’s a medical condition that happens to lots of people. We treat it and move on.
But, it is a sensitive area.
And she was very attractive. Certainly someone I would’ve wanted to find me attractive.
And visualizing me applying the cream to myself probably wasn’t going to score me any points with her.
But here’s the thing: I don’t really know what she was thinking.
Our whole interaction could have been irrelevant to her because she was engrossed in the details of her own life. Maybe she was looking forward to her plans for that night, or maybe she had a new puppy at home that she was excited about.
Or maybe our meeting was funny for a moment and then she let it go.
I’ll never know.
Today I can look back on this and see the humor in it.
And I’m really working on trying to remember that I never know what someone’s thinking. It’s challenging sometimes, especially at the moment when my speculations arise.
I try remind myself that my thoughts are almost always negative.
That’s just how I seem to be wired.
The lack of an email response doesn’t mean that someone has stopped liking me. The unanswered text message does not spell certain doom for a relationship.
Things come up in life. People get busy or sidetracked.
Most of the time I’m just imagining the worst.
And I wish there was a cream for that.